My Baby Max Options

[MAXIESMOMMY]

I have never posted to a board before. I hope this makes sense when it appears. My beloved Max, a Lhasa Apso with the most beautiful eyes, passed away so suddenly on August 18. I don't know how to stop crying at home. I was away on vacation and my husband was home taking care of him because he only had one kidney so we took seperate vacations so one of us would always be with him. Max had been itching and itching so he brought him for an oatmeal bath at the groomers. He still continued to itch after that, so he called the vet and started him on baby Benedryl. Now Max developed a rash so he took the day off and brought him to the vet. He told Max that the vet was going to make him all better and they went bye bye in the car. Max never came home. He had a heart attack while they were doing a skin graft. The vet tried and tried to revive him. After a while, he told my husband that if Max did revive, he would be brain damaged. Our baby was so smart. He knew lots of commands and would pick out the toy we told him to get. I am just devastated. I cry and cry. I am having him cremated because we live in a townhouse and I can't bury him outside. I thought of a pet cemetary, but I knew he wouldn't want to be so far away from his mommy and daddy. How will I get through bringing his ashes home????? How can I look at that every day and know he's in there and I can't hold him and rub his little head? He won't be able to give me little wet kisses anymore. Please, please help me. He was my first and only dog and my first tragedy to have to deal with. I feel so hollow inside. My life will never be the same. Carol

[BabyHannahsMom]

Oh Carol,
I hardly know what to say right this moment. I too know the awful, awful loss you are feeling -- how is it possible that the world keeps going on, the sun keeps shining, and people are laughing and smiling and happy, but not you? Your heart is broken, I know. You were such wonderful, loving, caring parents to Max. What good care you took of him. I have no doubt he knew he was the king of your hearts and that you would have done anything in the world to save him. As Patti said, it was not to be. My heart breaks for you. I will be thinking of you and will say a prayer for you.

The days, weeks and months to come will not be easy. It has been 4+ months since I had to have my little Hannah girl put to sleep and I still long to see her and hold her again. I miss her so very much. It takes time. Max was your baby, and we here on this site understand that this loss is as significant as any other loss -- like a child, because they were our children. Please keep coming to this site and "talking" as much as you need to. It helps so very much when people understand how you feel, and we all do.

Bless you and please take care of yourselves. Do remember that Max loved you more than anything in the world, and he would not want you to be hurting so. And remember too that he KNEW he was totally loved by both of you.
Marcia
Baby Hannah's Mom and Babe's Mom