Getting Angry - Why Can't I Have My Happy Ending?, what if somebody else has him? Options

[Mink&WillowsMom]

Twitchit has been missing 23 days. Every so often I read that somebody kept a stray they found. "Maybe I have somebody else's Shadow" someone posted. That thought strikes horror in me. A nearby garden center found a Maine Coon, and after doing absolutely NOTHING to find her owner, I heard one of the staff is preparing to adopt her and take her home. That makes me so angry! Somebody's heart may be breaking at their lost lovely, and any adoptive parent needs to post flyers, take out ads, contact vets, have the animal scanned for a chip before considering keeping it. (Zookeeper: yes, thank you for trying to your adopted pet's parents.) I am horrified to think that somebody might have Twitchit, but isn't looking to find me. I have flyers out, ads, all the local vets and shelters have his photo, I've posted online at Craigslist, and the local radio station's website. I'm trying to make myself visible if somebody's trying to find Twitchit's mama. BUT WHAT IF SOMEBODY HAS HIM AND ISN'T TRYING? God help me, I'd rather think he'd died than to think he dumped me and is with somebody else just because their lap and food bowl is close at hand. That's a wretched statement. I feel awful for saying it. I should be happy if he were alive *anywhere.* But if he's dead, then I understand why he can't come home. If he's alive, I WANT HIM HERE.

This was so much easier when I was resigned to his death. But after Shadow's and Bennett's return, hope has blossomed, and that beast HURTS. I'm so distracted. I can't move forward. A friend wants me to plan a trip, and I can't imagine leaving. With Shadow gone nearly 6 weeks, and Bennett gone 8, maybe I just have to wait, maybe my happy ending is coming too??? What if I wait, what if I do my part, and I still don't get my happy ending? This is SO UNFAIR!! The whole thing. If I'd found his body, at least I'd know what happened. But the not knowing is just EATING at me. My concentration is shot. Aside from y'all, I'm struggling with this alone. I WANT WANT WANT WANT MY HAPPY ENDING TOO!!! ~kimberhurting

[5catsmom]

M&W's Mom,
I was just checking to see if you're okay and how your day went. I know how the days drag and you can so easily lose yourself in sadness and depression when a part of your life goes missing, Just letting you know, you and Twitch are in my thoughts and prayers and I think about you both a lot. Take care - Barb