My Dog Was Put Down Because Of Dcm Options

[dobielover]

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Hi there.
My name is Jamie and i was a owner of a beautiful 4 yr. old doberman named A.J.
I just had to put him down on Friday, July 30th due to an illness called DCM.
I cant stand this guilt and hurt and numbness all over me. I keep feeling like i made the wrong choice, that i should of waited a couple more days. Im so sick to my stomach that i vomited when i got home. I need to stop this torchure that im doing to myself. I just feel like i disappointed him by killing him. I know i didnt kill him, but i brought him to the vet and signed for him to be put down. I just wish i could convince myself i did the right thing. Everyone says i did the best for him. I still dont think so. I CANT STAND IT!!! I miss him SO much! I cant breath at times cause i get so upset about him. I just want him home again.
I feel so guilty,sick,upset,misserable,regret........i just want him back!

[SJ J & S]

Is this normal the way im reacting?

This is very normal, even those lucky ones that did not have to make the decision feel guilty.

We humans love to punish ourselves - put ourselves down - criticise ourselves.

I went through all this just over a year ago and believe me every guilty heart wrenching tear that you will experience is normal.

Your heart made the decision to send A J home it’s your brain that’s now trying to make sense out of it all.

Love
Sue