1 Week, a million tears Options

[KaseysMom]

I can't believe its been a whole week since i kissed that soft little belly.I guess your daddy and i agreed without saying so to not speak of you today, and it was so hard as we only have one another and I the folks here.noone calls noone cares and when i did mention you the other day while out i actully got an eyeroll i wanted to sceam, i dont know what is wrong with people! and i am begining not to care, the people i have been around have not given me any joy that i can remmember as opposed to you my baby that gave me so much joy everyday, i miss playing hide and seek with you and i hate that i can walk down the hall unacostted noone jumpimg out at me. Sydney just stays in bed with whoever is sleeping shes fine but i am sure she misses you too. i cant believe i even miss the litter pan we do not need 2 now and so Sdyney has to do both in the one pan,you girls were so funny using one for pee and the other for foo-stinky, its just insane the things that are gone like being able to answer "the grey one did it" when anything happens not having to shut the bedroom door so daddy can sleep without you two chasing each other over his head, no walking you to the mailbox, and i lit a candle today and was able to leave the room and not worry about the baby getting at it.even trowing away a cig pack has changed i cant bear to wad them up i just toss them away cause i know you wont be fighting me for them.and i cant help but wish i could help daddy more i see him mist up often and i know i can talk to him whenever i want but i see his heart breaking so i am trying to not as much i wil just try and talk here more, he put his every morning milk cup away with a stern warning for me not to throw it out. i really just dont know what were gonna do we boith miss you so much its so hard,the word moving even came up.I just hope you knew how much we wanted to save you, we would have done anything not to lose you anything but let you suffer.i cant see to type anymore i love you baby,im sure i will come here often

[KaseysMom]

Yeah the tears never end and just when your so spent you think another can't come there is a fresh new batch that pours out. I read your story and I am so sorry for your heartbreak.
I don't know what to say about your Hubby maybe he just could not take seeing you so hurt?
I have had that said to me as well by most of the family I know but not my Hubby Kasey was his Baby I got her for him the week i was supposed to go for a surgery and we were very worried as I have some health issues and so I went out and got him a baby to look after just in case and also he had never had a baby kitten before (I had got Sydney while he was back in Australia and she was 6 mo.s the first time he saw her)Boy did he love that baby! I feel bad for him as he can't get it out as much as me.And i think we both try and spare each others feelings alot. I know when he walks in here and see this site up he turns on his heels, he cant deal with it hes going to have to a bit next week cause i need his help to get pictures in here, and I want to see her so badly but there all inside his file somewhere the one thats my av I got from my ebay page. Sorry I always ramble when I start typing about Kasey but it helps me alot just being here typing.