Beautiful Dream Options

[kimm]

Hi everyone,

I have been going through a difficult time recently. It's been about a month and a half since I lost my precious Peaches. I have had many pets throughout my life but she is the only one who was truly MINE. She forgot she was a cat when she was around me & showered me with so much love....no matter how long I held her she would cry when I put her down, so of course I picked her up again, & she purred & purred....so it went. It hurt so much when I realized she couldn't fight the cancer anymore and I had to make the decision to end her suffering. This was so painful but I think I actually did better for the first week or 2 afterwards than I'm doing now. Some of the posts I've been reading here lately, I can really relate to in so many ways.......the feeling of nothingness without them, not taking pleasure in the memories.......because now it's hitting me, these are only memories & the reality is she's gone. Last night when I went to bed I fell asleep thinking about what I would give, that I would do anything to be able to hold her & love her just one more time. I don't know what stage of sleep I was in, but the strangest thing happened to me. I was sleeping, but still alert enough to realize that I was asleep & dreaming, that I was lying on my right side, that my husband was next to me & that my dog was lying on the floor at the foot of the bed. Then Peaches came into the bedroom. I felt her before I saw her, I knew she was there. I got out of bed & picked her up, and hugged her, kissed her, loved her like I had before. Every sensation was so crystal clear, the feel of her fur, her purrs & her smell......it seemed so, so real. I remember feeling such immense joy, it was as if it were really happening. This went on for a few minutes & then I realized she couldn't stay & I had to let her go, she had to leave. So I opened my arms & she climbed off my lap & was gone.

All morning today I couldn't stop thinking about this. This wasn't the first dream I've had of Peaches since I lost her, but it was for sure the clearest one. I've never had a dream that seemed so real. I'm trying to figure out what this means........was this my way of "letting go", or was she giving me a sign that she's ok & I can move on now? The whole thing is so weird because all I've been feeling recently is miserable because I lost her, but for a few minutes while I was asleep last night I felt the most incredible joy. I've been upset today because I know it wasn't real, & I wish so much that it was.

[bluemoon]

It was real, peaches came to you in your dreams to ease your pain. I would take this as a clear sign that she wants you to feel happier. She told you she was fine, and its your time to heal.
I have had countless dreams about Gizzy, at first I questioned why, as there was never an answer, I just accept that he had his reasons. I still have dreams about him, but I am reasured that he is just saying "im ok mum"
The things we love have a clear and precise way of getting to us when we are at our lowest and saddest. Take this all with a smile and try not to feel miserable, peaches would not want that. She will visit you in your dreams again, and even when you least expect it, you will feel her presence. I often feel the sense of Gizzy near me.
I know its hard, this week has been emotionaly hard for me, but try to think of the things she did to make you smile, thats how I have got through this week so far.
My thoughts are with you
Ruth xx