My Dog Was Put Down Because Of Dcm Options

[dobielover]

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Hi there.
My name is Jamie and i was a owner of a beautiful 4 yr. old doberman named A.J.
I just had to put him down on Friday, July 30th due to an illness called DCM.
I cant stand this guilt and hurt and numbness all over me. I keep feeling like i made the wrong choice, that i should of waited a couple more days. Im so sick to my stomach that i vomited when i got home. I need to stop this torchure that im doing to myself. I just feel like i disappointed him by killing him. I know i didnt kill him, but i brought him to the vet and signed for him to be put down. I just wish i could convince myself i did the right thing. Everyone says i did the best for him. I still dont think so. I CANT STAND IT!!! I miss him SO much! I cant breath at times cause i get so upset about him. I just want him home again.
I feel so guilty,sick,upset,misserable,regret........i just want him back!

[gingerspal]

dobielover--you feel like I did when I came here--like these folks are so nice and caring---and here they are "strangers"! but I was quickly set straight--we're not strangers at all because we have experienced what you are right now, and that makes us kindred spirits. My cat (that is him in my avatar) was run over in our own driveway. He lived for a week after surgery and I had so many hopes that he would pull through. Alas, he did not, and my heart was broken in two.

In my "real life" many people were compassionate but none of them really could empathize REALLY. Here you'll find people who are literally "in the same shoes". We all still remember most keenly how painful it is, expecially in the very beginning, to lose your best buddy. I continue to glean valuable information from the posters here...today I read that one person's vet told her that her departed pet will "remain" with her "until he knows that you're alright"! I loved that thought because I have often felt Ginger's presence, especially at the beginning of the process. What you do now, of course, is start a new chapter in your life without your companion.

Likewise your AJ begins his new chapter too, he is now at the rainbow bridge, jumping and playing and cavorting all around like the beautiful perfect animal that he is. He doesn't have any pain now and he is frolicking all around just waiting for the day when he will be re-united with you.He loves you and wants you to focus on all that was positive about your special relationship (he must have been fun to be given the affectionate name "oddball"). You're sure to cry the healing tears, but one of these days your tears will be replaced with smiles.

thinking of you!
Patti