My Dog Was Put Down Because Of Dcm Options

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Hi there.
My name is Jamie and i was a owner of a beautiful 4 yr. old doberman named A.J.
I just had to put him down on Friday, July 30th due to an illness called DCM.
I cant stand this guilt and hurt and numbness all over me. I keep feeling like i made the wrong choice, that i should of waited a couple more days. Im so sick to my stomach that i vomited when i got home. I need to stop this torchure that im doing to myself. I just feel like i disappointed him by killing him. I know i didnt kill him, but i brought him to the vet and signed for him to be put down. I just wish i could convince myself i did the right thing. Everyone says i did the best for him. I still dont think so. I CANT STAND IT!!! I miss him SO much! I cant breath at times cause i get so upset about him. I just want him home again.
I feel so guilty,sick,upset,misserable,regret........i just want him back!

[dobielover]

Denise,
Thankyou Thankyou so much!
What you wrote was wonderful.
It is gonna take so much time, but i will eventually get through it.
What you said about
"YOU TOOK ON ERNESTINE'S PAIN SO THAT SHE COULD FINALLY BE WITHOUT PAIN!!!!
I guess i took on A.J's pain so now he is finally FREE of all his pain & suffering.
Thankyou..i never thought of it that way.
God bless, and again.....thanks!
Jamie

In memory of our beloved dog
A.J Oddball Mantia aka (Fred or Pup!)
December 29th 1999-July 30th 2004