My Dog Was Put Down Because Of Dcm Options

[dobielover]

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Hi there.
My name is Jamie and i was a owner of a beautiful 4 yr. old doberman named A.J.
I just had to put him down on Friday, July 30th due to an illness called DCM.
I cant stand this guilt and hurt and numbness all over me. I keep feeling like i made the wrong choice, that i should of waited a couple more days. Im so sick to my stomach that i vomited when i got home. I need to stop this torchure that im doing to myself. I just feel like i disappointed him by killing him. I know i didnt kill him, but i brought him to the vet and signed for him to be put down. I just wish i could convince myself i did the right thing. Everyone says i did the best for him. I still dont think so. I CANT STAND IT!!! I miss him SO much! I cant breath at times cause i get so upset about him. I just want him home again.
I feel so guilty,sick,upset,misserable,regret........i just want him back!

[deedee]

I am so sorry for your loss. The guilt seems to go hand in hand with the grief when you are forced to make this tough choice. A.J. was ill, and if the vet thought there was any hope for him, he/she would have outlined the options for you. Nobody likes to make this decision, but if you had kept A.J. alive for a few days or weeks, you would have been doing it for you, not for him. You didn't kill A.J. You made a choice to free him from pain, suffering and decreased quality of life - that was love, not killing. A.J. would not want to see you punishing yourself so much, but would want you to remember the wonderful times that the two of you shared. You gave him a good home and a lot of love. It is tragic that he got ill so early in his life, but he knew you cared about him. You both loved each other, and that is what truly matters. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You were unselfish and very loving to let him go.

Dee Dee