Feeling Down, need to vent Options

[radgirl]

Hi all,

I've been doing pretty well with my grief over Misty, it will be 5 months in 2 weeks.

Trying to move forward, and doing okay, but today I am just in the dumps about it. I was trying to copy all his pictures to a disk to print off extras for a memorial project, and I had to stop. IT is just too painful. It's almost like if I copy them all, then he's really gone. I can't seem to completely close the book on it no matter how hard I try.

So I put the albums of older pictures away for now. I also hate making decisions like "well I have 2 of this one" etc. I feel like if I dobn't copy every picture that means I don't care or something.

I know it sounds stupid. I also feel kind of dumb because I called one of the pet loss hotlines again and they act like I am bothering them. They tell you to call back, you call back 2 months later, and they act like you are crazy for still being upset.

I think I've made great progress in the whole grief area, but the loss doesn't go away completely in 4 1/2 months. Today is just a downer day. I still keep hoping my little boy will come back.

Thanks for listening, Amy

[Chaos, my little...]

Grief can often take many months to start to really subside. Sometimes it can be years. Grief counselors should know this! Hang in there Amy, eventually your grief will ease enough for you to find peace. You are already taking this unfortunate event with the counselor and bringing good out of it by understanding and helping others that are feeling the same way you are. Take your time and be easy with yourself, as others here have told me. I'm so sorry for your deep loss.

-Jenn/Chaos' Mom