My Dog Sonnet, difficulty dealing with loosing her Options

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On June 12, 2004 I had my 13 year old lab euthanized. She had terrible elbow dysplasia since age 6 (I adopted her at 4 years old) for which we went to the vet every month for Adequan shots which kept her going this long, but last May her spine became arthritic. The last 2 months of her life she developed elbow infections and a pressure sore on her shoulder. She didn't really want to play (she was a fetch-a-holic) and I knew it was time by looking at her eyes. Her vet helped me with this decision, saying it was best for Sonnet but it doesn't make it easier to deal with being alone. I miss her so much. She was always with me in every room and the place is so empty now. I could use support in going through this tough grieving

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Well I was sort of OK Friday evening but then again another wave of grief hit me, and I haven't been able to really sleep well. Could be because I dreamt of Sonnet both Friday and Saturday nights. First time I've dreamt of her since she's been gone. She was named Sonnet by her former owner who was a musician and since I thought it such a pretty name and she was so responsive to it I kept it. I'm trying to figure out how to get a picture of her on this site. Hopefully soon so you can all see how beautiful she was. I like what was said here about Sonnet being with me when I take those walks. That was comforting to hear! Thanks. Yesterday was 7 weeks since she was last here. I also think I see/hear her. The vet said they stay with you until they knoiw you're alright. I had also mentioned to the vet that I had thought of not getting another dog again but she said I needed to since I was single and all but it's just not time yet. People tell me I'll know when that time is.
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