I Picked Up Momo's Ashes, Need some help with this Options

[Mo&Maisie'sMom]

I knew this would be hard, but not like this. The animal clinic who had his ashes left a message at the wrong number, so his ashes were there for a week. I called and found that they had him - raced there two nights ago and picked them up. It will be 9 weeks tomorrow since he died.

How can this be the beautiful little being who brought so much light and joy into my life for almost 11 years? I took the wooden box out, cradled it in my arms and just sobbed. I haven't been able to write about it, it hurts so much. My heart is broken.

I feel like I lost a limb... I am not the same person that I was 9 weeks ago. I have changed. I function and work and sleep, and I don't cry all the time, but there was a lightness about me that is gone. I don't feel like the same person anymore. I have Maisie and I adore her and love her tremendously, but Mo and I had a bond that I know I will never have with anyone or anything else again. I miss so many things - and life just isn't the same without him.

Have any of you felt like this? I really feel empty..

[Lucy1Josie2]

I'm so sorry about what you're going through. My heart goes out to you, I feel how sad you are. Just remember that you can still whisper to Momo in your heart, and who's to say he can't hear you? I know it's not the same, but for now, it has to be enough to get us through, doesn't it? It's not enough, but it has to be enough. It's not fair. But we all understand, and we're all here for you.

Thinking of you,

-- Michelle