7 Months W/o My Nissa Yesterday (23rd) Options

[Furkidlets' Mom]

I couldn't even write about this yesterday, on Nissa's 7th month anniversary, I was so shaky about it. I ended up having to bring her body out of the freezer, to have a 'visit' with me, I missed the feel and look of her so. My H came home just as I was bringing her upstairs and also got all misty-eyed as he stroked her "still so soft" fur. I just HAD to see my girl, it was killing me so much not to.

Hard as yesterday was, though, it ended up filled with blessings, too. I got a call from a dear, past friend, who helped me immensely as we talked of almost nothing BUT our passed kidlets and all things animal. This call had been strangely delayed until yesterday and it struck me that morning that this was WHY it had been delayed....it was an orchestrated gift from Nissa, so that I wouldn't have to be all alone on her anniversary! That was gift #1.

Gift #2 came from Maggie, the neighbourhood cat who's been visiting me for months now. Normally hissy/spitty out of the blue, she joined me upstairs as I was putting the bed back together and for the first time ever, jumped up on the bed to actually lie down. That was remarkable enough, but she then allowed me to lay down beside her, only about a foot away and when I did, she actually relaxed even more! So we had a 15 minute rest together. It was so unlike her that I now believe Nissa worked with what (little) she could, and 'make' Maggie give me something I really needed.

Gift #3 was what Maggie did after she got up and went outside to our yard. W/i a couple of minutes, she'd suddenly caught a birdie (yes, I know, not a 'pleasant' subject to many, but...), which felt so NORMAL and reminded me so much of my girl, the Mighty Huntress that she was, even if she didn't like birdies but rodents. But rodents aren't really out and about here yet, so again, working with what she had.....

Gift #4 came at the end of the dinner we'd gone out for (no one in the mood to cook today). There were only 2 songs I'd even been able to hear clearly in this restaurant. The first, one called "A New Day" by Colin James....the meaning to me, mainly in the ti*tle (and I love this song), and the second, even more meaningful - "I've Got You Under My Skin"....part of which I used to sing to both Nissa and Sabin on occasion. Since both of them have sent me messages before through song, I just knew that these two were just that....their closeness to me.

I took such great comfort in these 'coincidences' that aren't merely that....too many new and unusual things all in one day, to be nothing but coincidence. Orchestrated timing, hearts opening, working through another feline, personal songs.....no, I'm convinced this was my girl, my darling Nis', taking good care of her Mommy, just as she always did. I lit the usual candles for her in the evening, plus an extra, floating candle in honour of both her anniversary and Moose's (Lori) and told her how grateful I was for her wonderful gifts and for sticking close to me throughout the whole day. I still miss my Nis' like all get-out, but she did her very best to get me through this painful day, and my heart opens in wonder and so much big, pink, fuzzy love for my Gal-Pal, the light of my life, everything she was, still is and ever will be....my Nissakins.

I love you and miss you, Sweetie-Pie, more than ever!! My little Hun-Bun, the most lovingest girl in the whole Universe!!

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[Kim R.]

I ended up having to bring her body out of the freezer, to have a 'visit' with me, I missed the feel and look of her so. My H came home just as I was bringing her upstairs and also got all misty-eyed as he stroked her "still so soft" fur. I just HAD to see my girl, it was killing me so much not to.

Oh my gosh, FK's mom, how on earth could you face that? There is just something about the thought of seeing my lifeless girl that brings me to tears. I actually forgot to ask how you deal with knowing her body is so close...yet she is not there ...heartbreaking. Putting her back must have been so terrible....

I got a call from a dear, past friend, who helped me immensely as we talked of almost nothing BUT our passed kidlets and all things animal. This call had been strangely delayed until yesterday and it struck me that morning that this was WHY it had been delayed....it was an orchestrated gift from Nissa, so that I wouldn't have to be all alone on her anniversary! That was gift #1.

What a wonderful friend she must be ! I bet she is the most wonderful person in the whole world to understand your pain !

She was such a wonder with her talented tongue, most of the time making sure she didn't 'sandpaper' my lips with the back of her tongue, but just using the frontal part where it's so soft and delicate.....mmmmmmm......I've never sighed more deeply in my life, that when my gal would kiss me so tenderly....but then she'd interrupt my SIGH with....EVEN MORE KISSES!

This sounds like a romance novel, girl ! HEY! GET A ROOM !!! Those pics of Nissa....just beautiful. She is the most heavenly looking kitty I have ever seen. I can only imagine through your decriptions of how soft her fur really is...it looks almost irradescent in your pics...like she 'glitters'...you can tell she was really something special...Oh how I know how much you miss her. I hope your weekend brought you some smiles, I'm thinking of you always .
Kim