My Dog Sonnet, difficulty dealing with loosing her Options

[sonnet]

On June 12, 2004 I had my 13 year old lab euthanized. She had terrible elbow dysplasia since age 6 (I adopted her at 4 years old) for which we went to the vet every month for Adequan shots which kept her going this long, but last May her spine became arthritic. The last 2 months of her life she developed elbow infections and a pressure sore on her shoulder. She didn't really want to play (she was a fetch-a-holic) and I knew it was time by looking at her eyes. Her vet helped me with this decision, saying it was best for Sonnet but it doesn't make it easier to deal with being alone. I miss her so much. She was always with me in every room and the place is so empty now. I could use support in going through this tough grieving

[sonnet]

I tried to foster a housetrained, calm and well-behaved 2 year old Dalmatian for a rescue group . She had great house manners, etc, for 2 weeks but I just couldn't continue to do so (let alone adopt her!) because I felt she was getting in the way of my grieving. That's when I wondered if I could ever love a doggie again. I suppose it was just too soon?