Beautiful Moon Options

[Moonie]

I'm really sorry, it's really long. I'm just writing out what is in my head. Probably it won't make sense because I can't even think straight.

Lost my room rabbit, the one who made me laugh, confused me, was there is the early hours when no one else was, was everything a pet could be and more. She was my friend, a special friend.

Moon, my beautiful Moon, died yesterday.

Why? The cat gave her fleas, and we treated the fleas and she had a bad reaction to the medication.

Nothing terminal, just something that made her uncomfortable, and for that she lost her life.

In the past 15 months, she is the 5 rabbit of mine to die (the first one was groomed by the cat and went into shock, got a cold and died, the 2nd went in labour, the 3rd of old age [he was nearly 12 so he had a fab long life], the 4th from kidney problems).

In the past 6 weeks I have gone from having 9 healthy, happy rabbits, to 6 healthy happy rabbits. But for how much longer? How long 'til the next one goes.

Moon, you were always there, you made me laugh, made me cry, taught me a lot, gave me a friend. You have given me so many memories, some make me laugh, some make me cry.

The last contact you gave me was to lick me. You knew you were dying, I held you fleetingly, and you licked all over my arm. I will forever remember that. You showed me how much you loved me, and now I know the love I gave you was not one way love.

I know you had an amazing life, you loved life, you were happy, never alone, and as free as you could be.

My beautiful curly whirly girly, you will forever be in my heart.

Fly free with your daddy, fly free with your friends, fly free for eternity

I love you darling.

[Moose Mom]

Moon's mommy

I'm busy trying to blank her out and pretend none of it is real

While I know this seems like the best thing you can do, sometimes the ONLY thing you can do and stay sane, it's really not a good thing. Pushing your emotions down like that and holding them away from you only leads to depression. As bad as it feels it really is better to feel your emotions and work through them. You will have to do it sometime and it's better to do it now then go through a long depression and then do it.

I know this because I've been through it. Ten years ago I lost two cats within 5 weeks of each other. I shut down and pretended it didn't happen. Years of depression later I finally started to feel my emotions from that time. 5 months ago I lost another kitty. This time I let myself feel my emotions. It really sucks but I'm doing better, lots of sadness but no depression. Of course there was depression, but it only lasted a couple of months, not years. I know how hard it is, I really do and I feel so sorry you have to go through this.

Wishing you the very best in this dark time