I Miss You So Much, Four months for Moose Kitty Options

[Moose Mom]

Today is a very hard day, my Moose kitty has been gone 4 months. How could it be so long? How can I make it day by day without him? For 10 years everything was about him, he needed so much care, we loved him so much. I hate this.

Ten years ago I lost my best friend and kitty cat, Butch. I almost followed him, sometimes I wish I had. I know this time it's not an option, I have to stay and take care of the family I have. Hubby, Autumn and little Majik need me. In a way it's nice to know I'm past the half-way mark. I'm 55 soon, I don't have as many years left as I have lived. Sometimes that's scary and sometimes it's a comfort. I know I can go and be with my boys.

I also know tomorrow will be better. I want to give you all out there hope too, even if I'm not feeling it much today. I AM doing better, I can look back and see how far I've come. While I do cry every day some, I don't cry all day anymore. There is joy and much love in my life, I can see it now. I can reach for it now.

I know when Moose passed he filled the universe with his love, he was so full of love. I'm selfish I know, I wanted it all for me for a while longer. When my Butch passed he took some of the light from my life, and Moose took more. Maybe that is what life and death are, we live and our losses make life darker and darker till we can't see anymore. Oh I'm am such a downer today, I'm sorry.

Moosie I want to see your little face so much baby. I want you to yell at me and love me and be with me. I thought we would have more than ten years buddy, I really did. I miss all of you, but most of all your love.

You had such a huge soul, you filled anywhere you were. The house is so empty without you in it. Mommy is so so sad without you. it's so hard to look at your pictures, and so hard not too.

I do have love and joy in my life, I was crying so Majik kitten came and asked for attention, by poking me in the bum with his sharp little claws. When I picked him up he licked my tears, which only made me cry harder. He is so soft and small and has such a precious little body...he's just not Moose.

Mommy will love you forever Buddy

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[5catsmom]

Moose Mom
I'm glad Butch and Moose will be waiting for you when it is your time (a long time from now, I hope), and I'm glad your Majik brings you such love and licks your tears away. (I have a Mitts cat that does that too - isn't it amazing that they know to do that? It always brings a smile through the tears).

When we all first come here, we're almost positive we won't make it through the agony, but somehow the sharing and comfort of others here helps soften the pain. It's such a giving community, and all inspired by our blessed furbabies. I think in some way they guide us here, to find each other and help each other. They just keep giving.

I'm praying for better days for you, and I know Butch and Moose are too, and so many others. Take care - Barb