I Miss You So Much, Four months for Moose Kitty Options

[Moose Mom]

Today is a very hard day, my Moose kitty has been gone 4 months. How could it be so long? How can I make it day by day without him? For 10 years everything was about him, he needed so much care, we loved him so much. I hate this.

Ten years ago I lost my best friend and kitty cat, Butch. I almost followed him, sometimes I wish I had. I know this time it's not an option, I have to stay and take care of the family I have. Hubby, Autumn and little Majik need me. In a way it's nice to know I'm past the half-way mark. I'm 55 soon, I don't have as many years left as I have lived. Sometimes that's scary and sometimes it's a comfort. I know I can go and be with my boys.

I also know tomorrow will be better. I want to give you all out there hope too, even if I'm not feeling it much today. I AM doing better, I can look back and see how far I've come. While I do cry every day some, I don't cry all day anymore. There is joy and much love in my life, I can see it now. I can reach for it now.

I know when Moose passed he filled the universe with his love, he was so full of love. I'm selfish I know, I wanted it all for me for a while longer. When my Butch passed he took some of the light from my life, and Moose took more. Maybe that is what life and death are, we live and our losses make life darker and darker till we can't see anymore. Oh I'm am such a downer today, I'm sorry.

Moosie I want to see your little face so much baby. I want you to yell at me and love me and be with me. I thought we would have more than ten years buddy, I really did. I miss all of you, but most of all your love.

You had such a huge soul, you filled anywhere you were. The house is so empty without you in it. Mommy is so so sad without you. it's so hard to look at your pictures, and so hard not too.

I do have love and joy in my life, I was crying so Majik kitten came and asked for attention, by poking me in the bum with his sharp little claws. When I picked him up he licked my tears, which only made me cry harder. He is so soft and small and has such a precious little body...he's just not Moose.

Mommy will love you forever Buddy

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[ryancat]

Dear Lori,oh,I have been thinking of you all day.I knew this day was drawing closer.You and I found this site just about the same time.I lost my boy on Oct. 13th.I am sorry your so sad today but I hope you know that you are in my thoughts tonight.I miss my boy too and sometimes I wish I could join him at the bridge but yet we know that our place is here.We have families to care for and kitties to love.I know your Majik will never replace your Moose but I am glad you have him in your life to give you support and love.I don't know what I would do if I didn't have my new boy Smoky to give my love to.I hope your feeling okay tonight and I pray you will have a better day tomorrow.Your right,time does help some.It doesn't take it away completely but it does give you time to learn how to deal with it.You are such a special person and you give so much insight to the people who are in pain on this website.You have a beautiful soul and I am glad you share your wisdom with all of us.I am thankful to know you and I pray you will be better soon.Sincerely your friend,Renee (Sox' mom)