I Can't Do This Again, Losing another furbaby Options

[jan]

We found out last Saturday that our 14 year old miniature schnauzer, Pepper, has hemangiosarcoma. He has a tumor off his spleen that basically takes up his entire abdomen.

We lost his mama, Molly, on March 29th last year.

I first came to this site after suddenly losing our 10 year old black lab, Phoenix, in 2004.

Somebody please help me! The vet says there is absolutely nothing that can be done for Pepper. Surgery won't add any appreciable time to his life. So, I just have to sit here and wait for him to die.

I HATE THIS WORLD. I HATE GOD. HOW CAN THERE BE SO MUCH DAMN PAIN AND GRIEF IN THIS WORLD?

I can't stand it. I really, really cannot stand it.

[Ramona]

Dear Jan,
I know the pain is awful. I lost my baby to the same tumor. We had no warning, just one day she became lethargic and would not eat. We rushed her to the vets and was told the horrible news. The tumor on her spleen had ruptured and she was dying. We had to make that terrible decision fast. I came home without my beloved Nikki. Her toys were still laying around the house along with half eaten treats. Today it is two weeks since last I hugged her. I miss her terribly, but this site has helped to know there are others who love their furbabies as much as any other family member. I had a dream in which I saw my Nikki running towards me in a beautiful field with her tail held high and twinkle in her eyes again. This has helped me to know she is in a better place with no pain or loneliness. I still cry daily everytime I see some of her fur laying in a corner somewhere. Please know that we are all with you in thought.
Ramona