I Can't Do This Again, Losing another furbaby Options

[jan]

We found out last Saturday that our 14 year old miniature schnauzer, Pepper, has hemangiosarcoma. He has a tumor off his spleen that basically takes up his entire abdomen.

We lost his mama, Molly, on March 29th last year.

I first came to this site after suddenly losing our 10 year old black lab, Phoenix, in 2004.

Somebody please help me! The vet says there is absolutely nothing that can be done for Pepper. Surgery won't add any appreciable time to his life. So, I just have to sit here and wait for him to die.

I HATE THIS WORLD. I HATE GOD. HOW CAN THERE BE SO MUCH DAMN PAIN AND GRIEF IN THIS WORLD?

I can't stand it. I really, really cannot stand it.

[jan]

My Buddy, I am so sorry Buddy died from this hideous disease. Thank you so much for your post.

It is absolutely terrible, isn't it? My poor baby - I keep thinking I should be DOING something. And, there is nothing I can do.

I want so desperately to believe that we will be reunited with our babies in heaven. I'm having a lot of trouble with my faith at the moment. I have a lot of trouble trying to reconcile a "loving God" with the horrible capriciousness of life. Not only because of Pepper, but also, a good friend ours (human!) had a brain aneurism rupture on Christmas Eve and has been in a coma since then. Her husband will soon have to make the decision whether to give her a morphine drip and let her go, or keep the hope that she will eventually wake up and will be able to come back at least somewhat from it.

Too much pain. Too much grief.