Kasha, Mommys Lil Girl, 18 days without my baby Options

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I'm so glad to have found this site. 18 days ago I had to put my little westie mix girl to sleep. I am devastated beyond belief! Kasha had a relaspe of a middle ear infection, she didnt know up from down and her eyes rolled around wildly. The Vet didnt have much hope for her. After 3 days of treatment he finally said it was time and that she was suffering. So I said go ahead and put her to sleep. Now I have feelings of guilt, I should of been there for her last moments to comfort her and ease her passage but I wasnt strong enough to do this one last thing for her, I will never forgive myself for letting her down. I wonder if I should of taken her else where for a second opinion..........so many unasnswered questions. I am so lost without her little presence. Tomorrow her ashes should be in at the vets, so tomorrow will be a really hard day for me. I have 2 other dogs but they dont seem to be any comfort to me, I was really only close to Kasha, from the day I got her we formed such a strong and loving bond. I spoiled her beyond reason and for that i do take comfort in, she may not of had long in this world but at least she had it all for the time she was here. I miss the smell of her, sounds crazy but I do. When I went to bed at night she slept with her head on my pillow cuddled up to me and I would put my face down in her fur , smelling her and I would go to sleep that way. Everything I did I did for her. Now I feel as if I have nothing but this empty painful void in my heart. I feel like I have lost something vital in my life that will never be replaced. Kasha truely was one of a kind and unique. 3 years was not enough time.

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Lori, my other dogs name is Sissy, so far today she hasnt coughed and the medications seem to be working, what a blessing!

Heres another Kasha story for everyone.

My son had moved in with us briefly after his fathers death and along with him came his dog tabby and THE BONE BOX. The bone box was literally a big plastic shaped bone filled with doggy treats. Well right away Kasha claimed the box as her own. She would lay by it guarding it and wouldnt let the other dogs near it. She would scratch at it when she wanted us to take the lid off so she could have a treat. Once the lid was off she would stick her head and and look side to side intently as if she was counting the treats to make sure the loot wasnt pilaged! Well my sons dog tabby decided to make sport of Kasha, she would sneak up while Kasha was doing her bone counting and take one paw and slap Kasha on the butt to get her going, Kasha would swing around with her girly little growl and charge and tabby would smile and run away. And as soon as Kasha went back to counting yep you guessed it tabby would slap her with her paw again! When my son moved into his own apt he left the bone box for Kasha being she loved it so much.