New Here...just Lost My Cat Options

[mollysmom07]

I just lost my best friend and baby at 3am suddenly. She had been sick off and on the last year. She was 10 years old. I am absolutely heartbroken. I can't stop crying. I am so glad I stumbled onto this forum. I have a daughter that is 4. She is doing better than I and asks when we are getting a new kittie. I am sorry if I am rambling. I have been up all night and haven't eaten in 24 hours. My Molly saw me through so much and was by my side through my infertility, my grandmother's death, my divorce, 2 major surgeries and the adoption of my daughter. In 2 weeks I am having back surgery and my assurance was knowing that Molly would be by my side in bed and on the couch. What do I do know? How will I get through this surgery without her? I walk through the house and see her everywhere. I hear her and smell her. THis is my first pet of my own. I can't even be strong in front of my daughter. She is the one telling me "it will be ok Mom". I feel so much despair. I didn't see it coming. It hit so fast. She suffered really bad the last 12-16 hours. How do I cope? I have been on the phone to my friends and they have been great. My family have been the pits but they are very dysfunctional. My dad cussed the entire time he dug her grave. I just spoke to her and petted her gently and blocked it out. I am just a mess. Somehow I have to pull myself together and go to school and teach tomorrow. Does anyone have any advice? I have tried to read some posts but they really upset me and I couldn't quit crying. I just want her back so bad. I feel helpless. I am sure it will get better but it doesn't seem that way right now. I hurt too much

Thanks for listening.
Kim

[vizsla-angel]

Mollysmom, and 2boycats & JulzappaCat too,

I want to let you all know how sorry I am for your losses. I had to put down my Copper boy on New Year's Eve after we learned that the tumor that was removed along with his spleen a few days before Christmas was cancerous.

The past few days have been pretty tough, so please excuse me for covering you all with a "blanket condolence". I do try to address everyone personally, but I'm just not up to it. It's hard to try to offer words of comfort when there just are no words to comfort me. All I can really say right now is that I know how much it hurts and I promise it won't be this gut-wretching forever. Do the best you can to avoid people who are jackazzez about your feelings. If you can't bear to read other people's stories, just post your feelings here. Some of the other stories are very tragic. But I've also seen some of them take some twists and some really funny stories start coming out.

Zappa is quite the handsome boy, so don't get me wrong. We all do think he is quite the looker! There are two "tuxedo" cat moms here also. But for some reason, there are quite a few moms of black cats including me. We look forward to seeing your photos of Maui & Molly.

Love
V

PS: My theory is there is a conspiracy behind posting stuff. I think it's supposed to make us have to focus really hard to pull us out of our grief. Some sort of pseudoscience nonsense! Usually I have no problem posting photos.
Step by step:
1. type message
2. put cursor in box down by file attachments
3. don't type in photo name - click "browse"
4. window pops up with all the files on your computer
5. find name of photo you want to post and click on it ONCE so it's highlighted
6. click the "OPEN" button on THAT window
7. click "ADD REPLY"
*******For some reason, every time I try to preview a post with a photo in it, I lose the photo. Maybe that's what's going on.
If all else fails, post your problem in the Tech Support Forum. Something might be wrong with the pseudoscience.