New Here...just Lost My Cat Options

[mollysmom07]

I just lost my best friend and baby at 3am suddenly. She had been sick off and on the last year. She was 10 years old. I am absolutely heartbroken. I can't stop crying. I am so glad I stumbled onto this forum. I have a daughter that is 4. She is doing better than I and asks when we are getting a new kittie. I am sorry if I am rambling. I have been up all night and haven't eaten in 24 hours. My Molly saw me through so much and was by my side through my infertility, my grandmother's death, my divorce, 2 major surgeries and the adoption of my daughter. In 2 weeks I am having back surgery and my assurance was knowing that Molly would be by my side in bed and on the couch. What do I do know? How will I get through this surgery without her? I walk through the house and see her everywhere. I hear her and smell her. THis is my first pet of my own. I can't even be strong in front of my daughter. She is the one telling me "it will be ok Mom". I feel so much despair. I didn't see it coming. It hit so fast. She suffered really bad the last 12-16 hours. How do I cope? I have been on the phone to my friends and they have been great. My family have been the pits but they are very dysfunctional. My dad cussed the entire time he dug her grave. I just spoke to her and petted her gently and blocked it out. I am just a mess. Somehow I have to pull myself together and go to school and teach tomorrow. Does anyone have any advice? I have tried to read some posts but they really upset me and I couldn't quit crying. I just want her back so bad. I feel helpless. I am sure it will get better but it doesn't seem that way right now. I hurt too much

Thanks for listening.
Kim

[mollysmom07]

I wrote a nice long blog and attached a picture and it didn't go through and I lost it. Being sleep deprived I forgot what I wrote but I am sure it is a repeat. I did have my first shower without Molly sitting and waiting for me. That was a killer. I also had my first "nervous breakdown". I sobbed and cried til I puked. Olivia came in and told me it was ok and that Molly was with God in heaven. This came from a little girl that just turned 4. A good friend called and said that after my first few days she will bring Olivia here and spend the night so I won't be lonely. I keep looking at every corner she laid in yesterday and see her. I saw Olivia's black leotard on the floor and thought it was her. I wish the tears and sobbing would stop. I wish I was stronger for my daughter.

For those of you just experiencing loss, I am so sorry. Your pets are so precious to see. We will get through this. I hope you all can keep me strong. I have to for my daughter.


I have tried to post pictures but it won't let me. I don't know what I am doing wrong. She is black with beautiful green eyes.

Kim