8 Months Later, Does the grief change? Options

[Daisy's Mommy]

I was thinking about if there was any difference in my feelings now that it has been 8 months since Daisy passed away. I was also wondering how people think the grief changes over time.

In the days following her death, my grief was horrible and acute. Now, it is horrible, but generally less acute. At times, I can even think of her with joy in remembering her, but then waves of pain still hit me. I almost never come home without thinking how she is not there to greet me.

In the days following her death, I could not believe that she was really gone. I still cannot believe it.

I think that the main difference is that now, when asked, I can say that Daisy passed away without breaking into tears.

I will always miss her - my first pet of my adulthood, my true friend, my soulmate, my tiny terrier. There will never be anothe like her. Like in the rose in the "Little Prince", she was unique to me because I loved her.


Daisy's Mommy

[boatlady13]

Daisy's mom and John, Bless you both for relieving me of the guilt I feel for lovingly trying to keep Miss Ellie from suffering. You see I had given her mouth to mouth before when she got bad and she came back. This time it wasn't so good and she came back paralyzed. The decision at that point was not hard. I feel guilty for making her live when i should have let her go and not breathed the lifesaving air i nto her lungs. I couldn't let her go that way suffering for every breath I felt I had to help her. The absolute nightmare of this event has been haunting me.

You are right I did it out of the love I had for her and I did love her with all my heart. Thank you both for giving me the permission to make a loving mistake to help her.