My Dog Options

[lucky]

i lost my german shepard on 6/12/2006.we went out,she had her breakfast,then half hour later ,kept trying to be sick,started bringing up froth and in so much pain.she was in vets two minutes later.they phoned me ten minutes later .said she had a lot of trapped wind in her stomach ,and that her stomach was twisted.can,t do anything for her.she was fourteen and a quarter.i had three phone numbers to get my partner,which i rang and rang endlessly,even the vets tried her.i wanted to get hold of her ,cause i couldn,t bear being the one to be with my dog when they put her to sleep.but in the end i had to.seems like she only wanted me there.i had her cremated with dignity and brought her ashes home.she was with me day and night everywhere i went for over 14 years.i now i had to let her go,and we had the most wonderfull life together,but there is no where i can go where she wasn,t with me.it,s been eating me up day and night that she was out there on her own somewhere.i keep looking and searching,everything is numb.
A STRANGE THING HAPPERNED,outside my door i have a big garden canopy,i was standing at the door with it open,and a white balloon dropped down from nowhere and blew up to the door,just a normal one blown up,not filled with healiam,there was no wind,it didn,t come down from garden into door.it just dropped from above canopy.put it back outside and forgot about it.woke up 5.30 next day and balloon came into my head,went to door and it was still there about 16 hours later.i laid it on the shelf,not sure why ,just hanging onto anything.took my other dog out lunchtime.for some reason my partner went to it.she held it up to light and the exact image of my dog was in it ,just pale lines of the outline of her face how she laid in crematorium.the most prominent was her ear.when i said goodbye to her i was coaching that ear and talking into it.you could see the outline of her face and her eye just how she lay.her body had a blanket over it.evertime i touched the balloon it left a fingerprint,but they were inside and couldn,t be wiped off,but nothing happerned when she touched it.took it to her mothers,but ididn,t leave prints anymore,but she saw the outline as well.we went shopping and within half an hour the balloon had de-flated to the size of a large orange.
it,s been driving me insane to think she was on her own.i feel as though she has sent me this sign to let me now she,s okay and at peace(or am i just going mad).
it wasn,t a coinsidance-it was a sequance of avents. they say that if your sent a sign- that is very personal that only you can understand.i coudn,t understand why or where it came from,but makes sense because she died because of being full of air.why did it come down in front of me,why did i feel the need to bring it in next day,why was it still there,why did she hold it up to light,why did it hold the outline of my last memory talking into her ear,why did only i leave prints inside it.if people heard me talking ,i would be committed.it feels as though i had to leave prints for her to now i had seen it and that she wanted me to now she,s okay.i have spent so many hours crying for her.is this just to insane for words,maybe i am losing it.has anybody had strange experiances.
i absolutely swear to god this is all true,i love my dog dearly and would never give anybody false hope.i really want to believe it,it seems to strange to not be true.i am so grief stricken and hope to god she is okay.i can,t bear getting up in the morning,because it all comes back again.who wants christmas now.

[5catsmom]

Lucky,
I've just read your posts - I don't think you're mad at all. Many people who come here and post have written about the signs they've received, and some of them are quite amazing and awe-inspiring. Yours sounds like one of those, and in my mind, there's no doubt that your shepard was letting you know something she needed you to know. A lot of the signs that bereaved pet owners experience seem to be tied to the pet's need to let their human left behind know that the pet is safe and happy and at peace. What more succinct, eye-catching sign could there be than a white balloon dropping on your head? I think that's wonderful, and I think you must have had an extraordinary bond with your dog for her to come to you with such a lovely message. I believe that's a blessing for both of you. Please come back and let us know how you're doing, and take care - Barbara