I'm Feeling So Sad Today, missing my boy Sox Options

[ryancat]

Hi,everyone.It's been awhile since I've posted here but tonight I found myself coming here without even thinking about it.I guess I just wanted to see that there are many others still coping with the loss of a beloved pet.I am missing my baby Sox so bad tonight I can't stand it........I've been thinking of him every day wondering if he's in heaven,hoping he'll wait there for me when it's my time,wishing he were here instead of there so I could tell him I love him more one time and hug him like I used to...it's sooo hard to live without him.The holidays were always his favorite time of year with all the ribbons and bows to play with,the extra treats in his stocking,wrapping paper everywhere for him to play in,etc...We hung his stocking up this year even tho he's no longer here,is that weird? I just wish I could turn back time and bring him back to me just for a minute so I could say a proper goodbye.When he was put to sleep I was too upset to give him the goodbye I should have and now I feel guilty that I wasn't stronger.I don't know what else to say I guess I just needed to get out some of my feelings tonight.I pray that everyone who reads this post will soon find comfort and relief from the grief we are all feeling right now.Send me some prayers too while your at it cuz I sure could use them.Thanks for listening........ Renee (Sox's mom)

[ryancat]

Hello,everyone.I am so glad that this post has helped so many of you who are struggling to get thur the days just as I am.We have a right to the way we feel and if others can't relate to it then so be it......I for one am thankful that I found this site and that my post has started this most interesting discussion.Let's keep it going....How's everyone feeling today?? As for me,today has been better than most, last night my husband and I had our annual christmas party and we set out a little grotto in our garden for our boy Sox to honor his life.We placed 16 votive candles all in a row to show that he lived for 16 wonderful years with us.It was such a touching memorial to him and it gave me such peace.I knew that God and my boy Sox were looking down from heaven and I hope they were pleased with what they saw.All of our friends thought it was a lovely idea to set up such a memorial.Last week I ordered a memorial river stone with his name and dates ingraved on it and it should be here by the end of next week.I am learning day by day how to move on without him but it is truly the hardest thing I have ever had to do.Is anyone planning on hanging up their lost pet's stocking this year? I hung up Sox's stocking even tho I'm sure there are people who think that is weird.I don't care what they think........Hope you all are doing well today and please let me know how things are with you by continuing this post.I't has given me hope that the future will be brighter for all of us.Sincerely,Renee (Sox's mom)