My Cat Was Killed Today Options

[hackneyslim]

I am sitting here, a grown man, with tears dropping onto my clothes, because the light has gone out of my life. My beautiful little cat, my own love for 11 years, my Chance, was killed by a stray dog in the street outside my house this morning. She was dead before I could get outside. I brought her inside and laid her on the couch, she spasmed a little, but she was already gone. I buried her in the woods across the road from my house a little while later.

This is the worst I have ever felt. My friends are being very kind, but I don't know how it'll be when I go out of my door again. I live alone, but I never felt lonely when my Chance was with me. Now I am understanding loneliness. It's very early, but I feel so bad. Not guilty, not angry, just sad. I don't think grieving is wrong, but I wasn't ready for this. My house is empty and still. It seems unfamiliar. I feel unbalanced, uncentred, I feel like a stranger in my own skin. I can imagine no comfort.

Thanks for reading this, and thanks to whoever for the site.

h

[hackneyslim]

Thanks to everyone who wrote something, you have all helped me tremendously to get through the first part of my grief with a degree of support I never expected.

Thank you for all your good wishes, your prayers and your expressions of sympathy. It is a very valuable part of this experience for me, and an invaluable resource for anyone in a similar position. I never expected to feel so grateful to complete strangers.

I read your comments in the midst of my sadness, and I hope you believe me when I say each one exorcised my torment a little more.

The worst times are waking up in a silent house, and returning from work to no welcome. Any time in between activities catches me catching my breath. I also detect certain people's patience with another's grief is easily exhausted. I will take my own good time, with your established and continuing support.

I can't say I have a spiritual side, much to my regret - I have looked, but there's nothing there for me - so I am forced to turn to a more everyday course. This is no way meant to express disrespect for anyone else's beliefs. We are all trying to work towards the same goal, I think.

I buried my Chance under some trees in the woods I walk through every day on the way to work. She is in a beautiful spot, the autumn sun playing through the branches. This comforts me. I can visit any time. She will always be in my heart, always. How much I loved her I am only just beginning to acknowledge fully. My only love. I miss you everywhere in my life.

Thank you all again, and I wish you all the peace you have revealed to me.

h

To finish, I have close contacts with the local Stray Cat Charity, and thus access to any number of deserving cases. This is an avenue I will explore more fully in the near future. There is no need to be lonely, someone said. How right you are.