My Cat Was Killed Today Options

[hackneyslim]

I am sitting here, a grown man, with tears dropping onto my clothes, because the light has gone out of my life. My beautiful little cat, my own love for 11 years, my Chance, was killed by a stray dog in the street outside my house this morning. She was dead before I could get outside. I brought her inside and laid her on the couch, she spasmed a little, but she was already gone. I buried her in the woods across the road from my house a little while later.

This is the worst I have ever felt. My friends are being very kind, but I don't know how it'll be when I go out of my door again. I live alone, but I never felt lonely when my Chance was with me. Now I am understanding loneliness. It's very early, but I feel so bad. Not guilty, not angry, just sad. I don't think grieving is wrong, but I wasn't ready for this. My house is empty and still. It seems unfamiliar. I feel unbalanced, uncentred, I feel like a stranger in my own skin. I can imagine no comfort.

Thanks for reading this, and thanks to whoever for the site.

h

[eclipse]

I wish you peace, and know how painful it is to lose a companion who was always there for you.
I've recently lost one of my cat companions. I knew my beloved pet was ill, but your situation is so much harder, because you didn't know that today would be the day you would have to let Chance go.

I can really relate to what you've said about being a stranger in your own skin. Anyone who has shared their life with a pet learns that they make us whole in ways that we don't often figure out until after they are gone. Often, it is the ones who we do not plan to come in to our lives that do this best for us. (My cat was a stray, i.e. "dumped")

Take the time and solitude you need to in order to honor the gift Chance gave you. Believe no one who tells you it is foolish to feel this way about a cat. Everyone here knows how you feel about Chance. Post again when you feel up to it. I am sorry for your loss.