Just Missing Her... Options

[Kim R.]

I have been really missing my girl something awful the last couple of days. I always miss her....but it has been amplified for some reason lately. Like today, she and Zada would always get their baths outside during the summer, and Sasha always loved it. Since Sasha has been gone, it has always been rather depressing during bath time...I'm always thinking about how she would be standing next to me and Zada waiting her turn (she always went 2nd because she really enjoyed it so I would take my time with her). Today, I was thinking about Sasha while I was giving Zada her bath, and I began to cry. I was thinking about how that would probably be the last outside bath of the summer this year, which led me to think about the passing of time, which then made me think about how long Sasha has been gone...and how long it will be until I see her again,etc., it was a pretty rough 'bathing session' to say the least. I actually found some comfort in the dumbest thing...the overspray of the hose started making a rainbow right next to Zada. I know that water makes rainbows, so I'm not saying that in itself was anything special, it just made me feel a little better and served as a reminder that Sasha will always be with me and that is what I need to try to think about.....