Missing You Scooter, It's almost 10 weeks now Options

[Shortrish]

My Dear Scooter - It's almost 10 weeks since we lost you. It doesn't seem possible. It feels just like yesterday that I would turn on a water fawcet for you and feed you your special food. I've been feeling down and sick for a while, and just don't seem to want to get up in the morning. It's a chalenge just to get up. I went to the doctor today and he gave me some samples of anti depressant. I hate taking medication, just like you used to hate it. I talk to you and hope you hear me. I hope you know how much we miss you. It's like someone yanked a huge piece of my heart out. I've done ok for awhile, but lately, the pain of losing you is getting so unbearable again, and I'm teary all the time. The seasons are changing and it's getting dark earlier. The other night, I felt a pressure on my side while I way laying in bed. I kind of hope that it was you visiting me to let me know you're still with me. I know you would like your little new brother Marcel. He does so many of the things that you did. He loves to investigate the running water like you did. I remember you fell into a tub of bath water once, and you nearly ran across the water to get out. your daddy and I laughed so much at that one. We ran after you with towels to dry you off. I know in my heart that you are in a better place for you, but , for me, the only better place would be to have you here, well and sleeping on my side agein. But, that was not God's plan for you and I have to find a way to cope with that. Until, we meet again, run and play and have fun, my funny little guy.

Love,

Your Mommy

[Krissyo]

Shortrish,

I am so sorry for your health problems on top of your grief. I will keeep you in my prayers.

I know what you mean about missing Scooter. Dugan will be gone five weeks tomorrow and I don't know how I would have gotten this far if it had not been for this website and all the wonderful and caring people who are here. Once and a while I have an ok day (minimum amount of crying) and then I am back to feeling really depressed again. I don't know what I would do without Jake (our only remaining furbaby) to take for a walk. It is good for him and gets me out of myself.

Your comment about water made be remember something about Dugan that I had forgotten all about. When he was really little til about the age of 6 he used to run downstairs everytime I would do laundry. He would jump on the dryer and watch the washer fill up with water. He was in awe of any kind of flowing water. Thanks for jogging my mind about a sweet memory.

I still just want him back with all of my heart and soul.

Dugan's Mom
Krissyo