I've Lost My Best Friend Options

[Rockadoodle]

I know I'm not unique in my pain, I've read so many posts here by others who have also lost a beloved friend. I'm so sorry for all of us.

I have this need to continue to talk about my feelings of grief but I sense those at home would like me to stop. No one has said that, but I feel that way. Everyone loved Buddy but he and I had a special bond.

My beloved friend and companion of 13 years, Buddy, died this week on 9/11/06. He had been diagnosed with cancer in late January and was doing really well. But he went into kidney failure and we just couldn't keep putting him through treatments any longer. He seemed so tired.
So we chose to let him go. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.

Afterward, when we brought him home and buried him, we saw a rainbow over his grave and shortly thereafter, a moth type butterfly fluttered around my head and followed me for a few feet before flying off toward Buddy's grave. I sense that he was sending me a sign that he is okay and that he survived physical death.

While I find alot of comfort in that, I miss my friend so much I feel sick and can not function. I do not know how I will ever be happy again.

[tikkanen]

Rockadoodle, My deepest sympathies in your loss. I too grieve losing my little one, Tigerpaws who also struggled with kidney disease. She died the 12th. I just wish there was more I could do to comfort you and all our friends who mourn losing our special friends. I am confident you will find comfort in your own way and in your own time. That a rainbow appeared over Buddy's resting spot can only be him telling you he is well. Like you, I am sick at heart and I too wonder how I will ever be happy again, but I also know this to be true...(Sir Paul was oh so wise) "there will be an answer, let it be..."


Be Well,

Mark