I've Lost My Best Friend Options

[Rockadoodle]

I know I'm not unique in my pain, I've read so many posts here by others who have also lost a beloved friend. I'm so sorry for all of us.

I have this need to continue to talk about my feelings of grief but I sense those at home would like me to stop. No one has said that, but I feel that way. Everyone loved Buddy but he and I had a special bond.

My beloved friend and companion of 13 years, Buddy, died this week on 9/11/06. He had been diagnosed with cancer in late January and was doing really well. But he went into kidney failure and we just couldn't keep putting him through treatments any longer. He seemed so tired.
So we chose to let him go. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.

Afterward, when we brought him home and buried him, we saw a rainbow over his grave and shortly thereafter, a moth type butterfly fluttered around my head and followed me for a few feet before flying off toward Buddy's grave. I sense that he was sending me a sign that he is okay and that he survived physical death.

While I find alot of comfort in that, I miss my friend so much I feel sick and can not function. I do not know how I will ever be happy again.

[Precious' mom]

All of us here have suffered very recent losses and feel for yours too. My Precious (19 years old) died on 06 August and I miss him terribly. He shows himself in the form of dragonflies and butterflies but has opted for birds recently (he loved &adees and would watch them for hours) -- all of a sudden there's a nest of them near my bedroom and one sings so loudly it has to be him channelling his loud voice through a bird! It gives me comfort because he's still with me in so many ways. I just wonder what he thinks of Patches, his new "little brother" of almost a week. Patch has looked at different things of Precious' with wonder in his eyes. He can see something that I can't and boy I wish I could!
I felt the very same after Precious died but time will heal you. So will keeping faith that things are okay where Buddy is and that he's being taken care of and is no longer suffering or in any pain. That keeps me smiling about Precious!
Lisa