I've Lost My Best Friend Options

[Rockadoodle]

I know I'm not unique in my pain, I've read so many posts here by others who have also lost a beloved friend. I'm so sorry for all of us.

I have this need to continue to talk about my feelings of grief but I sense those at home would like me to stop. No one has said that, but I feel that way. Everyone loved Buddy but he and I had a special bond.

My beloved friend and companion of 13 years, Buddy, died this week on 9/11/06. He had been diagnosed with cancer in late January and was doing really well. But he went into kidney failure and we just couldn't keep putting him through treatments any longer. He seemed so tired.
So we chose to let him go. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.

Afterward, when we brought him home and buried him, we saw a rainbow over his grave and shortly thereafter, a moth type butterfly fluttered around my head and followed me for a few feet before flying off toward Buddy's grave. I sense that he was sending me a sign that he is okay and that he survived physical death.

While I find alot of comfort in that, I miss my friend so much I feel sick and can not function. I do not know how I will ever be happy again.

[Krissyo]

Rockadoodle,

I am so sorry for you loss of Buddy. Everything you are feeling is only natural. Your loss is still so new and painful. I lost my beloved cat Dugan after 17 years on 8/19/06 and he was diagnosed with cancer as well. We had two surgeries to remove tumors but they kept coming back and we could not due chemo because of his kidneys. We had to make the awful decision let him go but I try and remind myself that he is not in pain anymore. That he is with his brother and sister at Rainbow Bridge waiting for us but it sure is lonely down here without them.

I loved all of my fur babies but Dugan was mine heart and soul. He loved me the most and I feel like he took my heart with him when he left. It was so hard to even get out of bed. I try and take it one day at a time and be gentle with yourself. Do what you can and leave the rest. Don't worrry about what anyone else says. This is your grief and we all grieve differently and on our own timetable.

This place is a life saver. We are all in this together. Like a club that we all belong to but never wanted to join. Keep coming back and posting.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Dugan's Mom
Krissyo