I've Lost My Best Friend Options

[Rockadoodle]

I know I'm not unique in my pain, I've read so many posts here by others who have also lost a beloved friend. I'm so sorry for all of us.

I have this need to continue to talk about my feelings of grief but I sense those at home would like me to stop. No one has said that, but I feel that way. Everyone loved Buddy but he and I had a special bond.

My beloved friend and companion of 13 years, Buddy, died this week on 9/11/06. He had been diagnosed with cancer in late January and was doing really well. But he went into kidney failure and we just couldn't keep putting him through treatments any longer. He seemed so tired.
So we chose to let him go. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.

Afterward, when we brought him home and buried him, we saw a rainbow over his grave and shortly thereafter, a moth type butterfly fluttered around my head and followed me for a few feet before flying off toward Buddy's grave. I sense that he was sending me a sign that he is okay and that he survived physical death.

While I find alot of comfort in that, I miss my friend so much I feel sick and can not function. I do not know how I will ever be happy again.

[Shortrish]

I am so sorry for your loss of Buddy. Your loss is so new. The journey through grief is very draining on you physically and emotionally. You did the right thing for Buddy. And what a beautiful sign he sent you, that he was ok. A beautiful rainbow and butterfly.
It is hard for our families to hear of our grief. You can come here and talk all you want about how you feel. and tell us more about Buddy when you want.
This forum has been a blessing for me, being able to write and talk to others about the grief process, and my beloved Scooter. You are never alone here. Everyone understand what you are going through. You gave Buddy the ultimate gift of love and that was to free him from the pain he was in. You did everything you could to help him through his illness, and it sounds as if he did well for awhile. Find comfort in that if you can.
When you are up to it, many people here, have made up photo albums of their pets in honor of them. After awhile, you will be able to look at the pictures, and smile, and not cry. I made an album of all my cats. It is still difficult to look at the pictures somedays. Sometimes, I cry uncontrolably, and other times,, I laugh at the silly pictures of Scooter and the things he used to do.
Again, I am truly sorry for your loss. Write here again, and let us know how you are doing.

Scooter's Mom