Dealing With Loss Of Three Beloved Pets, Dogs Poisoned Options

[Guest_Sass1_*]

On Wed. evening someone poisoned (with anti-freeze) three of my beautiful dogs. Sam ( Great Pyrenees) and Buster (German Shephard mix) died in the middle of the night the third, Fred (collie mix) I had to put down Thurs. morning.
Sometimes the pain feels like it will never end. I have three small children who are dealing with it I think better than myself. I haven't been able to sleep in my bed because it reminds me of that night. I was in a fairly deep sleep and heard thrashing around which at the time I thought was just the dogs playing. I remember thinking it sounded really rough but I was tired and didn't get out of bed. They weren't playing they were dying. We offered a reward for any information. One of the tips we received seems like it might be the guy. Unfortunately, we aren't getting much assistance from law enforcement. I feel very alone. We went out yesterday and picked up another dog from the local shelter. I'm having a hard time bonding with the dog.
Basically, I am tormented over their deaths and miss them dearly. We never received a single complaint from any of our neighbors which makes it all the more bewildering.
Finally, I feel like there isn't anyone around me that understands the sorrow I am experiencing which makes me feel even more crazy. I keep thinking this is some kind of nightmare and I'll wake up shortly.
Thanks for listening,
Sam, Buster, Fred's mom,
kendra

[Kim R.]

Wanda,
I know that you are very emotional when it comes to babies dying needlessly, and I, too, have had to bite my tongue on more than one occasion (which is very difficult for someone who is as outspoken as I am when it comes to responsible animal care...I was already 'scolded' here once before for really letting someone have it, so now I really try to just ignore such posts). I understand how you feel when it comes to people who intentionally let their babies go outdoors, unleashed and with no fence to keep them from harm, and then want to blame the people who hit their babies with their car, or the neighbors dogs for attacking them, etc. At the end of the day, we are the ones who are ultimately responsible for their safety and well being, and we must do whatever we need to do to protect them, if we don't, then we only have ourselves to blame. With that being said, Sass cannot control other people's actions and in no way is responsible for what happenned to her babies. If her dogs enjoyed being outdoors, then there was no reason to keep them in all day as long as they were safely contained, which she stated they were. My Sasha loved to bask in the sun during warm spring days( our yard is obviously fenced), and I would always allow her to stay out there as long as she wanted to, and I like to think of myself as the "ultimate pet owner" when it comes to care and responsibility. If someone would have poisoned her (God forbid), then I would not hold myself responsible for that...the offending party, as in Sass' case, would truly be the one to blame for a change. I have definitely read some posts on here that your words would ring very true to, but I agree with Karen that this isn't one of them....however, they are words that come from a hurting heart that is full of emotion for all of those precious babies that die too young due to people's irresponsibilty and I cannot fault you for that.
{The hardest part for me when I hear those type of stories is that I would have done anything in this world to have had my baby here with me for just one more day...ANYTHING....and others can be so careless and just throw their babies lives away...such a waste.}
Your friend in grief,
Kim