She Got Hit Don't Know What To Do.?lost!, I waited 25 years for her, now i'm lost. Options

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Why did she have to go. She was only 8 months old. I waited for my little heart for 25 years. Now I'll be turning 26 without her. Not like I haven't lost pets before but I can't deal with this. Why must people drive so careless and fast. Why couldn't have been out there 3 min. earlier? I can't stop crying. I've never had a cat so loving, loyal,and cuddly as her. Peach's would sleep between me and my husband every night. Not by our feet but cuddled right up by our necks. I'D GIVE ANYTHING TO HAVE HER BACK. Please help I can't deal with this. How do I get her back.
Kristi-Lost in North Idaho
DAY 2: Things aren't any better. I hate waking up crying. I can't even stand being home. It's so uncomperhenable to me. I have 4 other critters 2 cats(distant not lovey) 2 dogs that have issues with due to: one being here when another dog killed peaches sister. Don't think she was involed she loves our fat cat. And my little wolf hybrid thats 17 weeks old that was just at the vet easter weekend because I accidently shot her with a bb gun.(could have swore she was in the house) 1,700 vet bill and paid 300 for her. But she dug up the already past away kitten. Now I have my angel still out side in a box. I'm lost I don't even know what to do with her. I can't stad the thought of putting her in the ground I almost would like to go get her and cuddle with her to go to sleep. I'd like to have her cremated so I could always have her. But who knows how much that is. And is it right? I almost want a part of her like her tail. But is that sick and wronge? I just don't know what to do but I know I have to do something soon. I hate life it's not fair. She didn't even get a year of life. She no longer follows me up and down the stairs or waits for me in my computer chair in "OUR" bedroom................. I'm so so sorry peaches!!! I never forget you, I've always needed you and always will. I'm Sorry!!!!Now what do I do with my angel?