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[erica]

Yesterday, our loving golden died in her sleep, she was 15. I am devastated, its one of the hardest things ever. My dad is taking it even harder he was her buddy. He walked into the office and she was gone. She wasn't stiff she laid as if she did when she was sleeping. She was still warm. I couldn't believe the news. We buried her on my grandpas 11 acres underneath a big tree. My dad made a cross and other little things by where she was buried. I haven't gotten the strength to go up there yet. The whole family spent Easter with her, she got ham and all sorts of treats. She was chipper as can be. Before i left my fathers house i gave her a long kiss and said goodbye. I didn't know it was going to be my last. Now, i don't know what to do. Every 2 minutes it seems like i am crying again. I have never cried this much and it hurts. I don't know if i can go back to my dads house without her there. If someone can please help me i would greatly appreciate it, I'm tired of crying and missing her. I just want it to stop.

[erica]

Thanks I will continue to come back here. Tomorrow should be better, i will be at school, and at school there is less time to dwell and be miserable. I am so fortunate to have had her go on her own time. With the loss of my first pet named kc more difficult to cope with because he was put to sleep,before i even said goodbye. I hope it gets easier. It has to at my moms house we have 8 dogs, i have no idea how i am going to deal with losing all them. Ill take it one day at a time i suppose.