One Month Without You Today., Continuing on sure is hard. Options

[Sidney's Buddy]

My Beloved Sidney. I lost you one month ago today. The days have crawled by and the loss is felt the entire time. I don't have to tell you that I love you. You certainly know that. I will tell you how much I miss you, though. More than you can imagine.

I wonder if some day I will be able to remember you with only happiness. There has been so much sadness to this point. You are and will always be my little love. My love for you will not fade with time. You have changed me forever.

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[Fiona and Stripe...]

I am so relieved to read your last post and find someone who feels how I do. I have two other very beloved cats - Whitey (who is Stripey's twin), and Lily, whom I adopeted from a pal about 7 years ago. Whitey is a total flirt - incredibly cuddly and friendly, loves everyone. I am getting some comfort from her, and from Lily who is beautiful and totally neurotic - the cat who yells for attention then walks away when you pat her, then yells again. Whitey has been sleeping with me every night. I adore them both but they are not Stripey who was totally 'my' cat. I hate to say this, but in teh first few days of emotion and anger, I almost resented the other two for not being Stripey. I feel terrible about this. Stripey would sulk if I was away and had someone else caring for the cats - the other two dont mind as long as they get fed, she would reach up and pat me on the face with the most adoring expression imagineable. She would hiss at prospective (and commited) partners I introduced her to, and yell at them if they tried to move her off her spot on the bed, or walk past her. She liked to lie on her back with her paws in the air, and I would rub my face in her furry tummy and she would grab my head, gently with her front paws. She liked to comb my hair too, but wasnt the best stylist.

Like Nelson, Whitey is having issues, and like you I wonder what she makes of her sisters disappearance. Is she worried I'll get rid of her too? She gets very upset if she is shut out of a room away from me and juxtaposes between the pillow and in the bed with me each night. Lily has become even more vocal and worried looking than usual and is also demanding a lot more attention. Neither is eating as much as usual. It hurts not to be able to explain to them where she has gone.

Nelson is adorable - he looks like a big, cheeky male version of Stripey. Bless.