One Month Without You Today., Continuing on sure is hard. Options

[Sidney's Buddy]

My Beloved Sidney. I lost you one month ago today. The days have crawled by and the loss is felt the entire time. I don't have to tell you that I love you. You certainly know that. I will tell you how much I miss you, though. More than you can imagine.

I wonder if some day I will be able to remember you with only happiness. There has been so much sadness to this point. You are and will always be my little love. My love for you will not fade with time. You have changed me forever.

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[Sidney's Buddy]

Dear Kim,

Thank you so much for your kind words. they truly touched me a lot. Support from the people here have helped more than I could ever have imagined. I may, some day, be able to tackle the impossible.

I am an artist and my lovely little guy was truly the studio cat. Every morning, after coffee, he was raring to go into the studio with me. When he was a kitten, and already a super lover boy, he would actually climb up my back while I was painting and sit on my shoulder and excitedly watch the paint brushes move on the canvas. It was frequently quite a shock as I was concentrating hard, to have the claws dig in and be a human ladder. Since my hands were usually covered in paint I would always scratch him with the back end of a brush. All you ever had to do to get him excited was to show him a paint brush. Insta-purr. The tens of thousands of hours that he kept me company in the studio are all in my mind ready to haunt me now. As is all of his hair stuck in the paintings themselves.

The "Sasha would haves" are already a very familiar concept to me. I am pretty sure that this will be with me forever. It's all, of course, still worth it. That we all have to keep on telling ourselves. Over and over. It's all okay, but that will not help one bit in dulling the pain of missing him.

Once again, thank you very much. I hope that you find peace.

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