Does Getting Away From It All Help? Options

[penguinstar]

My friends say that im getting deeper and deeper into depression...
they think that if i left the apartment and go on vacation it would help, because everything in the apartment reminds me of Ubi. All the memories were here...
But i feel...if i leave...i would be running away from her...denying her and all the memories we had...
Theres a part of me that does want to leave to ease the pain....but a huge part of me is scared to leave because i want to be close to these memories and i dont want to ever forget them...I feel as if she's still here in this apartment and if i leave i would be running out on her.....

[penguinstar]

Thank you so much deedee and Sidney's Buddy. I was crying before I came on the site to check the forum...but when i read your forum it comforted me a lot and it just felt like a huge weight was lifted from me...
what you two said really touched me...and made me realize some things...
i was just so focused on thinking of her as a physical being ...and didnt realize that yes, i will carry her in my heart...she will go wherever i go...she's no longer stuck in her physical form...she's free to be where she wants to be...and that makes me happy for her...
When i realized what you two have said...it felt like...she was comforting me....i probably couldnt feel that before because i was too consumed with the pain....but now I do feel her everywhere I go....

Thank you..