It Hurts So Much, pain of loss Options

[smitty_sca]

i lost my special friend mocha cat three days ago and am really struggling with the pain. everytime i look over to where her kitty condo used to be i start to cry. everytime i go to do laundry and she is not following me i start to cry. i feel so empty inside. am i going crazy?

[smitty_sca]

hi everyone

i want you all to know how sorry i am that you have lost your beloved companions. i am so touched that so many of you have reached out to me when you also are struggling with so much pain and grief. i am sorry i haven't responded sooner but had to take a break as i was really struggling writing about what happened. it seemed every time i wrote about it i would relive holding mocha while they put her to sleep and all of the emotions that swirl around that memory. i am starting to heal but still feel incredible sadness and grief. i still hear her and that actually comforts me to know she is still with me. i know that there are normal stages to grieving ie disbelief, anger etc. and that it is important to just allow those feelings to surface and then pass. we all do that in our own way and in our own time. that being said it doesn't make it any easier. right now i think i am experiencing a bit of depression over her loss but i know that will pass too. i also believe that our animal companions come into our lives for a reason. mocha went through so much with me. she helped me through incredibly difficult times like my divorce, extreme financial hardship and my son's addiction issues. she was the rudder and one constant in my life when it seemed like all there was was chaos. she was always there to comfort me. i just hope that in some way i was able to comfort her too. at least i knew she was sick with diabetes and may develop complications. what a shock for those of you that had no warning at all. that would just make things so much more difficult to accept. what amazes me is how these incredible and beautiful creatures accept us totally with absolute love, trust and no judgment. what a blessing they are in our lives. i am going to try to hold on to that thought for a while until i get through this next phase of grieving. i am so glad i found this forum. you have all allowed me to have so much more insight into what i am experiencing and feeling right now. i send you all my love and just wish there was something i could do to ease your pain.