It Hurts So Much, pain of loss Options

[smitty_sca]

i lost my special friend mocha cat three days ago and am really struggling with the pain. everytime i look over to where her kitty condo used to be i start to cry. everytime i go to do laundry and she is not following me i start to cry. i feel so empty inside. am i going crazy?

[smitty_sca]

i am so sorry you lost your special companion Taz. i also really appreciate your taking time to try to help me cope when your own pain is so intense. your wisdom has been helpful. i thought about what you wrote and came to the realization that i feel "intent" is the key. our intentions were pure and we really do not have anything to feel guilty about. we made our decisions based on pure love and i don't know of anything purer than love. i am going to really try not to &%^yze what happened anymore. i don't know how successful i will be but replaying what happened and what i might have done differently will only cause me pain and self doubt. my veterinarian (who is so wonderful) sent me a beautiful sympathy card and one of the things it said was that mocha didn't want me to grieve too long because she would never want to cause me any pain. i really believe that is true. i don't know if you'll think i am nuts or not but the last couple of nights i could have sworn i heard her meow. my dog "kenya" even snapped her head up and ran to the stairs and barked. i also could have sworn she rubbed against my leg at one point. it might be my imagination, but i believe she is trying to help me through the grieving process and trying to let me know she is still with me. does that make any sense? have you had anything like that happen? anyways, i truly am sorry about what happened with Taz. it must have been such a shock when she had been so healthy up until that point. my prayers are with you. have you heard about the candle lighting ceremony on monday nights to honor our animal companions that have passed over? i am going to light one in mocha's honor and will send a special prayer to you and Taz.