I Must Be Losing It... Options

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I fear I am losing it. Our beloved bluetick coonhound Luther was killed 2 months ago just before Christmas and I cannot stop crying! He was only 4 and hit by a car right in front of our house. The vets could not save him. I did get to say good-bye but it was too quick and I am so sad. Friends say we should get another dog, obviously we have so much love for them. But I don't want another dog, Iwant MY puppy back. I know this thought process is getting me nowhere! But I cannot seem to help it. He was a member of our family - and such a cool dog. I know I will never be able to replace him. Maybe just getting things out will help. I hate crying to my husband as I know he misses Luth deeply too. Its very hard to come home to an empty and quiet house. I never realized what ahuge part of our lives he had become (and me, never really a "dog" person growing up until I brought the adorable puppy home as a Christmas gift to my husband. Neither of us could believe how attached I became! I know it takes time but the sadness has not dissipated a bit. Hoping it will help to talk about it with people who understand.

[Tillie]

You know sometimes its so hard to read the posts here my heart just breaks for all of us. What I want to say is this I lost my little girl Tillie through a illness at a hospital with a vet. And yet the guilt is there did I not see she was sick early enough? Did I not insist that the vets do more? Why did I leave the hospital instead of staying there in their face? The reason I am saying this is that guilt I think is part of the grief no matter what the cir%%stances are.

I too live in the what if's over and over again. I don't know if I can comfort you but please know that it was a accident not a intentional thing. I am very sorry for your loss.

Tillie