Am I Going Crazy?, loss of beloved dog Options

[Fiona]

Am I going off my head? My darling wee hairy dog, Sgith died a week ago today after being hit by a car - and I wasn't there. He was with my mum, who's blaming herself no matter that I say dogs will be dogs and run across the road. Sgith was my faithful companion into whose fur I cried many times - he was my fourth baby - I have 3 children who are all also totally devastated. Sgith was a little dog with a huge personality and could never be 'just a dog' as someone said to me yesterday. He spoke to us, understood every word said to him and was spoiled rotten. Now I catch myself pretending hes sitting on the bed with me, speaking to him, trying hard to imagine hes there with me. I cant believe hes not here - can i turn the clock back - when do the tears stop? I cant stand the emptiness in the house - every advert on TV has dogs in it.

Please someone tell me it will get easier.

[kimrose123]

I just lost my dog today. She didn't die, my former boyfriend sued me for her after I have been the sole caregiver of her for a year, and believe it or not, he won in court. He won because he owned her before me. I gave her to him today after court and I have been crying not stop! I don't know what is wrong with me. I keep thinking about the long walks I would take her on, how she would get her favorite baby at night and climb into bed with me with it. I am grieving more for her than the breakup of my relationship with the man I dated! The judge said that in Kentucky a dog is nothing more than a item someone owns, and it didn't matter that I had witnessed that came to court that live in my apartment complex that testified I was the only one they saw that ever walked the dog. He said since I am a full time college student that was expected. I feel like Dorothy from the wizard of Oz. I can't go against the law, but at the same time I want to yell "Run Gypsy, Run, come back to me!" The grief wouldn't be so bad if I thought he would take care of her. But he was so lazy he would never, ever walk her, or bath her or brush her or buy her toys. How do I get over losing this wonderful dog that wasn't legally mine? Can I ever find another dog as gentle and loving?