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[Missing her so b...]

Saturday Jan22nd we lost our little baby Holly , she would have been 13 in May, after she fought so hard with heart disease. I miss her sooooooo bad we have known for months she was losing her battle but it's made it no easier.
And her lifelong companion and son is pining so bad for her it's heartbreaking.
She was so beautiful a tiny little Toy Yorkie and we love her so much.
Thankyou for this forum I really need to write down the words, this is all I can manage for now but it helps.

[5catsmom]

The first day or so after Heidi passed in 2001, on my bed, I could hardly be there, thinking, as you did, of her crying out to me and gasping, and being able to do nothing but pet her and tell her it was okay for her to leave, that I'd see her on the other side one day. I think, I hope, I was some comfort to her, because she was always such a needy, shy cat, and it's bothered me a lot in the intervening years to think of her crying. With Magic - 6 weeks ago - she curled up on the couch and passed quietly and I never even knew till I went to find her for her dinner. That picture has haunted me also, that I wasn't there at the end, but maybe that was what she'd have wanted - she was a very independent soul. So, at the beginning, those last views of my pets seemed to dominate my thoughts initially, and I had to really make a conscious effort to stop thinking about the end and focus on other more comforting visions. (Including the many, many squabbles I had to referee, for both of them - those are much happier thoughts!)
Thank you for being there also!