I Just Joined... I Just Lost My Sweet Pea, Doug, i lost my dog Options

[dougsmom]

I am in shock I guess. He played with me this morning, though I noticed some limping. He was a French Bulldog, and they have back problems pretty often I guess.

After a few hours, he was yelping when I touched him! I took him to the vet, he was fine, the vet couldn't find anything. When I got there to pick him up, he was yelping again. I made plans to bring him in tomorrow. Took him home, he was acting very strangely- like he was confused, didn't want to go inside. It breaks my heart to even think about it.

I took him to the emergency vet. Had to go to work for a few hours, which frankly sucked. When I got back, he had just passed- he was in distress from the pain and they were trying to sedate him. They gave him steroids, noting helped his mouth- it was getting more and more swollen. Couldn't get the tube in his throat! He was choking to death, and it kills me. They had to knock him out, then he stopped breathing.

I don't know how to say good bye to him. I was with his body and just cried and cried. I feel awful that I wasn't there at his terrible time of distress! Why is what I keep asking over and over.

I have a cat who keeps going to the door, looking for Doug. He's in my lap now, which is weird for him, he is not a lap cat. But he's being so sweet and supportive now. I appreciate this board- I just had to vent and write it out.

Doug was a total, complete love bug. Snuggled with me every night, always greeted me with his special snorting way, loved to run around with me. I am lost, he was such an immense force in my life.

[Leonpup]

I am so sorry... I just lost my dog Leon a week ago. He was only 7 years old, and it was really something we never expected. I am definately still in shock. The moments when I actually have an understanding of the reality of what happened- I completely fall apart. I cry everyday- I cry morning and night- My husband is the same, but more angry about it. We still have pictures of Leon all around us- I am putting more out all the time. I keep one picture of him in my pocket of my jeans- to have him with me wherever I go. Leon was cremated, but I am so mixed up- I am scared to get his ashes...
I am planning to get one of his photos turned into a painting or drawing, I am also planning to get a sign for "Leon's Garden" to put in his little hole he dug.
It just happens fast- doesn't it??? Someone you love so much could be gone so quick. I believe there are reasons behind everything- I believe that our puppies, cats, loved ones all are happy in a world beyond our comprehension. I think that some creatures are so good, so amazing that they get snatched away to move on to something else- It shouldn't have suprised me then that Leon would be needed elsewhere- he was my little angel, and I had 7 years with him to hug and kiss and love- He'll always be my angel, my most wonderful guy... but there must be something even greater in store for him- something much greater than just being my worl, my best friend, my little love...

It is absolutely heartwrenching! I don't find purpose in things now- I think it will take time.

I am thinking of you and Doug...
-Rebecca