Our First Full Day W/o Molly, It is tougher than I ever imagined Options

[dflagel]

We had to put our beloved Molly to sleep yesterday. She was 11+ years old and was diagnosed with CRF a little over a month ago. We had hoped that through diet and medicine to keep the disease at bay for at least a few more months, but unfortunately the rate progression was very fast. After watching here lose 7 pounds, getting weaker everyday and being unable to stay hydrated we knew that soon the end stage was near. It broke our hearts to see her this way and after two days of agonizing over the decision to put her to sleep, we watched as the vet put our beloved Molly to rest.

It has been much harder to deal with than I ever imagined. I didn't want her last moments to be that of fear, but unfortunately Molly's experiences at the vet were not all that positive, so she was very scared to be there. I feel so guilty right now for how she died, but watching her deteriorate each day was taking a toll on the whole family. I thought that knowing that she was no longer suffering would comfort me, but unfortunately the pain of losing her is overwhelming.

I am home today and Molly's brother Ted is searching the house for her and meowing. They have been togther since birth and I just watching Ted look for Molly hurts even more. We are blessed to have Ted and will enjoy his love and affection as long as we can, but I am not sure I will ever be able to look at Ted and not think of Molly (nor would I want to). I look forward to the day when I can think of Molly and not cry.

Dave

[tammy]

Dave,

I am so sorry. I was also unpleasantly surprised at how hard it is to lose a pet; it completely knocked me on my butt and turned my world upside down. I am so sorry about your Molly.
My first week was by far the hardest week I have ever had in my entire life, so hang in there.
And I'm also looking forward to the day I will think of my cat and not cry.

I've been trying to rationalize similar to the way Phil is talking about, and it hasn't helped me a bit either. But it's only been 3 weeks for me and I know it'll take a long time to get there. But I will get there!

This board is filled with people who completely understand and feel the same pain you do. Try to believe them when they say things will get better eventually, because they've all come from the same place you are in right now.

and keep posting and telling us how you are feeling!

-Tammy