Can't Stand The Pain, Give the cat back to God Options

[Major Catastroph...]

I am faced with the decision to put my cat to sleep. I have tried perscriptions to stop him from urinating in the house but it is at its worst He is wrecking our house.The humane society won't take him because of his "problem" I talked to the director moments ago and he said putting him down is the most humane thing to do. All I can do is CRY & CRY & & CRY.......I am ANGRY my wife brought him home in the first place. I am ANGRY at the cat for making me go thru this intense pain I don't want to go thru. I am deeply, deeply SADDENED that I will never see my freind again. I must make the appointment to get this unpleasantry done tommorrow when I come home from work in the morning. I feel sick to my stomach and I feel stupid because of the intense greif I feel now. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!! It's only a cat.....but it isn't...it's my cat and I love him and I would just like to stop crying..........

[Major Catastroph...]

I CAN"T DO IT.....I WON"T DO IT. I talked to our vet this morning. She is aware of the cats problem and we have been working on this for a few years now. I am going to build him his own "Piper" (his name) room in the basement. It will have his toys, his food & water, and his litterbox in it. He is a total indoor cat and has never been outside. He would not be able to take care of himself if he did. I remember last summer he got mad at a cat outside the window and knocked out the screen thus escaping. He was missing for 4 days and I aged 4 years. I cried myself to sleep every night. He came back severely injured and I rushed him to the cat hospital. After all we have been thru, me and the cat, I just can't put him down. He is a very big cat and scares everybody that comes in the house because of his temper and behavior. We have to segregate him from company. He only seems happy when there is just me & him. He will crawl on my lap, flip over on his back and drool like the dickens while I scratch him. Nobody has ever seen him do this except for my wife. He will not do this on my wifes lap , only mine. She calls him "Daddies kitty" because he seems ill at ease with everyone but me. This incident and last summers have really opened my eyes about something in my behavior. I spent many years in the army and saw 2 combat tours which yeilded horrors that a human should not be exposed to....yet I weathered them so much better than this. I seem to have more respect and admiration for all 4 legged creatures than some of the 2 legged ones that cause trouble and heartache for people in the world. What is wrong with me? Am I misguided? I was raised by good parents who taught me the value of life but all animals seem more inportant to me than some people. I think something is wrong with me.................