Can't Stand The Pain, Give the cat back to God Options

[Major Catastroph...]

I am faced with the decision to put my cat to sleep. I have tried perscriptions to stop him from urinating in the house but it is at its worst He is wrecking our house.The humane society won't take him because of his "problem" I talked to the director moments ago and he said putting him down is the most humane thing to do. All I can do is CRY & CRY & & CRY.......I am ANGRY my wife brought him home in the first place. I am ANGRY at the cat for making me go thru this intense pain I don't want to go thru. I am deeply, deeply SADDENED that I will never see my freind again. I must make the appointment to get this unpleasantry done tommorrow when I come home from work in the morning. I feel sick to my stomach and I feel stupid because of the intense greif I feel now. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!! It's only a cat.....but it isn't...it's my cat and I love him and I would just like to stop crying..........

[shadded dreams]

I know all too well your pain. I watched my beloved Zipper die. He got sick on thursday. The vet gave me pills, told me to hope for the best. Every time I looked at him with his sweet eyes, he trusting look he had for me, I just wanted to die inside. I'd sit and cry & cry. I'd tell myself, and anyone who'd listen, "HE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HE'S DYING!!". He'd still follow me everywhere, and sit with me, and sleep with me, then on Saturday he took a turn for the wost and had to have him put down!! I felt like I was dying inside! A piece of me was being ripped out, then I figured out, it was my heart. My husband actually cried and cried more than I did the first night. He always pretended he didn't like my dog. But deep down inside he really did love him. That was in March, March 6th Zip died. I know how you feel. I hate that feeling so much. I felt so helpless. Please take it from me personally, don't be afraid to love that cat!! Don't push him away, he loves you!! He needs you, hold him as much as you can. The time will come that you can't hold him again. And you will feel worse about it. It's ok to cry, you need to. Grief sucks, yes that is true. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel for you, you just have to look. If anyone told me that I was going to feel better eventually, I'd have thought they were nuts. But I kept coming in here, and reading past posts to learn everyone else had been in the same boat as me. It makes you feel better to know that we understand. He'll never be "just a cat", and don't wish that. It's always better to have loved and lost than never loved before. I wouldn't give back the 11 1/2 years with my dog, just to erase my pain. And I'm sure if you searched, neither would you. Keep posting for us, we're here for you...HUGS--Zippers Momma