Does Anyone Else Not Want To Vacuum? Options

[tammy]

I'ts been 5 days since my cat Diapey died. My apartment is a total mess. But I don't want to vacuum because it will suck up her cat hair and I feel like it will be "erasing" her from ever being here. And I don't want to wash the blanket on top of my bed because I think that too will be wiping her away. If I wash the blanket and vacuum, what's left here of her?! Does anyone else feel like that?

I'm supposed to go on vacation with friends a week from tomorrow and I just don't think I'll be up for it. Should I make myself go? Any recommendations? If I don't go, how do I explain this to my friends without sounding like a crazy person?

And it really sucks to to wake up in the morning, and as soon as I open my eyes, my heart just sinks.
I don't even have to think about her; my heart is so heavy.

Thanks for listening again. And I am sorry to all those who have lost their pets too.
-Tammy

[dbrandon]

Five days since my friend Max died. We did not want to vacuum or change his bedding or disturb in any way his toys and treasures hidden around the house. We decided to move his things and clean his favorite reclining areas only because our other two cats are looking for him, sniifing and pawing and meowing for their buddy. One is very depressed and won't eat and barely moves away from where he and Max dozed in the sun. We've channelled our energy into spending more time with them. But no, we did not want to clean or vacuum anything ...we "hand" vacuumed the carpet to gather some of Maxs' orange fur to keep. You and Diapey are in our prayers.