Mourning, past..present and future Options

[Lisa...NOAH'...]

The past few days I have become overwhelmed with grief. Tomorrow will be 21 days since TJ passed away and almost 7 months since Sadie passed away. I find myself thinking about how much I have lost. How many dear pets I have had to bury over the years. I have always been one to rescue any animal that needed a home...including Sadie. She was a pregnant stray who found me. No shelter would take her and I didn't know what to do since I already had 2 dogs and 4 cats. Before I could figure it out she kicked the neighbors dog out of its doghouse and had her pups there. She had 11 puppies...the neighbor wanted to drown them...creepy man...so I took them in...raised all 11...found them all homes and kept Sadie. That was in 1991 and she just passed away January 31st. I can't stop thinking of how much I have lost...how many I have had to bury...the unending sadness and grief. Now I worry because Muffin...my 19 year old cat has cancer and is fine for now but I know I will have to go through this all over again and my dog Snoopy (14 1/2) is getting up there too. So his time is also coming. Sometimes I ask myself why I do it? Why do I keep taking more pets in because eventually they will also pass on and once again I will be devastated. The only answer I can come up with is...I do it because I know they need me and I can give them a good life...but why can't I just stop? I've already lost so many...so why do I continue?
Following is a list of all my dear pets that I have lost:
Scuffy 23 Childhood Poodle
Misty 22 Childhood Cat
Shana 15 Siberian Husky
Charlie 14 ##er Spaniel
Cleo 14 cat
Angel 18 cat
Kitty 5 cat
Sadie 17 Shep/Lab
Briar 13 English Setter
TJ 22

For them I grieve endlessly...I will always love and miss them and FOREVER KEEP THEM IN MY HEART.

Lisa...NOAH'S ARK