Is It Normal ? Options

[PHILLONNE]

REALLY, TO FEEL MUCH WORSE 7 WEEKS AFTER. MY SLEEP IS HORRIBLE. I'M VERY DEPRESSED AND ACTUALLY FEEL FEARFUL. ESPECIALLY WHEN AT HOME WHERE MY BEAGLE AND I LIVED. ALL I HAVE TO DO IS STARE AT ANYPLACE SHE USED TO BE AND THINK. AND THE TEARS FLOW READILY.. DOES THIS GET `ANY` BETTER AT ALL?
DO THE NIGHTMARES EVER END ? I DREAM "MY GOD, DOLLY'S GONE" AND THEN I REALIZE "I'M NOT ASLEEP" !
CAN'T CONCENTRATE - THE WHOLE `THOUGHT` HAS OVERTAKEN MY MIND OBSESSIVELY. SOMETIMES I WONDER AND DOUBT THAT ~TIME~ WILL HEAL AT ALL.
THIS ENTIRE EVENT STINKS-LOSING THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE AND THE EMOTIONAL DEVASTATION THAT FOLLOWS...
HAS ANYONE BEEN LIKE THIS AND RECOVERED ?
ANY COMMENTS / HELP IS GREATLY APPRECIATED.!

[Dixie's Mom]

Cynthia, Tim, and Phil,

I read all your posts several days ago and want to thank you all for your kind words and compassion.
I haven't felt up to posting the last week or so. I fell into a really dark pit of depression. I am slowly coming out of it, but it has been slow going. It hurts so bad that I sometimes feel that the only way I'll EVER be whole again is if I could rewind the clock, do the day over, and have my dog back. I know that sounds ridiculous....
People and animals die everyday...it is a part of life. My sweet wonderful grandma died 2 years ago and it hit me like a ton of bricks. But as much as I loved my grandma, I can honestly say that this has been the worst pain I have ever felt. Ever.
Honestly, though, I have to look on the bright side. So many have lost so much more. Some have lost children, babies, or more than one animal. I've been spared of any real pain for most of my 36 years. I guess it was my time to get a dose of reality..???
Whatever the reason for Dixie's tragic passing, I am so thankful for this forum, for the people that post here, and for the comfort that is provided. I truly love you all (in a "stranger" kind of way.).
Dana